ughhhhhh

right, im actually sick of everything, why the hell is life so confusing. we arent friends, leave it at that? i want to forgive you but i cant, what you did to me was so wrong, i cant be close with someone who would do something like that to me, its wrong. i was a dick to you aswell, but it was nothing in compare.
and people in general, i fucking hate them so much. okay, i get so much hate for being a crazy reb child or something? im not happy about it at all. sorry i get angry, its not my fault. i dont do it on purpose, its not my fault you all act like cunts. urgh why does everything have to complicate, i wish it was two months ago before all this shit happened.
relationships are so wank, i want one the whole time im single, and then when i get one im bored straight away. i wasnt made for commitment, and i need to stand up and realise that before i hurt too many people. the only people i really feel like i could stay with fuck me over so yeahhhhhhh.
why the hell im having a rant i do not know but its making me feel better, and stopping me from breaking my phone any more than i already have.
might get a tutor, because school's a bitch.

i really need to hit someone

whi is it that whenever im just starting to calm down you pop back up and say something to piss me off even more?
im trying my very hardest to stay calm, because it upsets those around me, and when i read all your shitty little comments over facebook and this bloody website, i just want to scream. hypocritical as it may be for me to post this on a blog, i feel i have the right seeing as you wont say anything to me unless i prod you in the right direction. i made that mistake today already, and all i got out of it was a sore hand and a dysfunctional mind. I really dont understand you at all, im still oblivious to the fact that im in the wrong, i honestly dont understand how i am. i was going to go to a party, jesus, how wrong of me. No, i dont want you to apologise, because i know i will never be able to accept it, but i want you to fuck off and leave me at peace?
i really cant seem to get happy at the moment because of you. i have enough shit on my mind without having to worry whether you're currently telling someone what a cunt i am, or saying im bullin about my mental diseases. please get over yourself, because im pretty sure you're just making yourself look even more childish. its not like me to get so personal in a blog but i felt like getting back for once. for once i want to be the fucking child, because apparently its all a lot easier if you are.