ughhhhhh

right, im actually sick of everything, why the hell is life so confusing. we arent friends, leave it at that? i want to forgive you but i cant, what you did to me was so wrong, i cant be close with someone who would do something like that to me, its wrong. i was a dick to you aswell, but it was nothing in compare.
and people in general, i fucking hate them so much. okay, i get so much hate for being a crazy reb child or something? im not happy about it at all. sorry i get angry, its not my fault. i dont do it on purpose, its not my fault you all act like cunts. urgh why does everything have to complicate, i wish it was two months ago before all this shit happened.
relationships are so wank, i want one the whole time im single, and then when i get one im bored straight away. i wasnt made for commitment, and i need to stand up and realise that before i hurt too many people. the only people i really feel like i could stay with fuck me over so yeahhhhhhh.
why the hell im having a rant i do not know but its making me feel better, and stopping me from breaking my phone any more than i already have.
might get a tutor, because school's a bitch.

i really need to hit someone

whi is it that whenever im just starting to calm down you pop back up and say something to piss me off even more?
im trying my very hardest to stay calm, because it upsets those around me, and when i read all your shitty little comments over facebook and this bloody website, i just want to scream. hypocritical as it may be for me to post this on a blog, i feel i have the right seeing as you wont say anything to me unless i prod you in the right direction. i made that mistake today already, and all i got out of it was a sore hand and a dysfunctional mind. I really dont understand you at all, im still oblivious to the fact that im in the wrong, i honestly dont understand how i am. i was going to go to a party, jesus, how wrong of me. No, i dont want you to apologise, because i know i will never be able to accept it, but i want you to fuck off and leave me at peace?
i really cant seem to get happy at the moment because of you. i have enough shit on my mind without having to worry whether you're currently telling someone what a cunt i am, or saying im bullin about my mental diseases. please get over yourself, because im pretty sure you're just making yourself look even more childish. its not like me to get so personal in a blog but i felt like getting back for once. for once i want to be the fucking child, because apparently its all a lot easier if you are.

BAHAHAHAHAHAH

my dear lord you're such a hypocritical douchebag.
dont go on about how much you hate your friend not saying something to your face and putting it in thier blog and then do the same thing, its so stupid ahah.
oh my godd, this is cracking me up, im glad i dont care about pathetic people.

fuck it man

and now im on risperidone , because im CLINICALLY INSANE. im going to hunt you down and rip your fallopian tubes out, you dutty cunt.

im a terrible person

im sure i really do like you, my heart just likes to kick me in the ovary at any given point.

allow trying

allow even bothering to try anymore.
its not worth it, i dont care if people upset, i dont care about anything? i dont want anything, i cant be arsed to care, i dont care, and yet nothing wants to go right.
the one thing i try to do doesn't work for me and it's what i want more than anything right now.
i will hurt so many people, i wish i cared more.
its not my problem is it, i hate you trying to cheer me up, you know nothing of the thoughts that plague my mind at every waking moment.
i am not saying for a moment that i have the worst life there is, compared to many others my life is perfect.
but i am selfish, i do not want this.
selfish isnt even the word, i am just ungrateful.
its called the greatest gift in life? yet i would want for nothing more than to return it, i didnt want it in the first place, it was not my choice to have this.
i dont want love, i dont want hate, i dont want money, i dont want popularity, i dont want a big house, i dont want a cool car, i dont want anything.
i want to curl up on myself and give up on whatever you can call my life.

fml

how the fuck did you find my blog, you cunt.

gogogogogogogogogogogo, i obviously dont like you.

fuck off? yeah, cool, thanks.

dick.

so much hate for people, and i cba for connell to come over.