last night

was possibly the most boring house party i ever went to.

sosososososososososo much hate frome everyone who was there, it was quite funny.

like seeing seventeen year olds fucked off one bottle of carribean twist and puking and perioding everywhere isnt my favourite thing to do.

just hope my party turns out better than that.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

have you ever had a best friend? like, a person you spend ALL your time with, and who you love more than you could ever love your boyfriend/girlfriend?

i used to. and now he fucking hates me. because i chose a fucking boy over him. because, i was naive enough to think that i'd be with him fo' evahhh and evahhh, and quite obviously, i wasnt. we broke up after a month and he's now seeing someone else, where i'm left best friendless and still completely in love with him.

and all i want is my best friend back. i was such a fucking idiot and karmas torturing me for it now.

i'm well clever init.

fuck.

urghhhhh

i just realised how annoying i must be?

well actually, well i dont really know.

i just hate how there are people who can have such an easy life, with such a good amount of friends, and they dont even have to try?

i try so fucking hard.

and as completely pathetic as that sounds, its true?

so i may as well try and change a little bit, but it doesnt really help that my voice in itself is annoying.

fuckkk.

alalalalallowww

don't you just hate it when things don't go according to plan?

i reallly do.

today just didn't go well for me? i had to break up with my friends boyfriend for her, got in an argument with some girl, had some stupid shit said about me, and honestly

i don't deserve this.